So things have changed and Fridays are now very different from ever before! Forget Friyay! I have now termed this day Friboo! (sorry to put a dampener on things)
The last few months have brought changes beyond belief and it's time to fess up and put it down on paper. You never know maybe it will be helpful for someone else and for myself too.
Here's how it all started... and I'll dive straight in!
There's a glimmer in the air and hope on people's faces as the sun pokes it's head from the clouds and the early blooms start to pop up on the trees.
It's the 1st if April and spring it seems is here, but the news we received today is certainly no Aprilfools.
I've just been diagnosed with breast cancer. grade 3, stage one triple negative! And I can't believe it.
I've been here before... 18 years ago I had Hodgkin's lymphoma in my neck and chest and that was no easy feat and what now seems to be the cause of this new cancer...
I had a bad feeling as we arrived in reception today, but I wasn't expecting a mastectomy and chemo to be part of the plan.
Turns out the radiotherapy I've had in the past, rules out a lumpectomy and radiotherapy, so a diep flap now seems to be the order of the day. It's a lot to take in for all of us. My thoughts turn to practicalities as the questions seem to roll off my tongue, my wonderful other half looks at me in disbelief.
I'm not sure where they are coming from either or how I'm managing to stay so focused on getting everything in some sort of order. I guess it's a way of staying in control and not letting the emotions take over.
Don't get me wrong I'm seriously pissed off. I didn't think I deserved to be here again, but what can you do?
If you want to check yourself then Breast Cancer Care's diagram below is excellent, as it's not just all about finding a lump!